one post... few topics... easier task...

TARC telematch

It was a part of my college orientation week programme and guess what. The event was supposedly held on the football field but when I arrive there ( late ofcoz.... hehe) not even a single soul was there. I came to thought that it had been canceled or something because of some week response so being the freshman of the college I felt clueless and lost. I went straight to the library and went hunting of some reading material to pass my time. I came across an economics book. Do you guys believe it I read it and it had changed the way I look at the business world. Surprisingly, I got hooked. That was the good part. So after 45 mins of reading, I decided to go to the cyber center. On the way there, I saw some people wearing white shirts on the bball court. This made me curious and I finally made me ask. I was directed to the sports complex which was situated at the other end of the campus. Bummer... I was instructed into some group and thank god they were indeed friendly. We had alot of fun and we got to know each other better. I made new friends yay... At the end of the day everyone was sweaty and smelly but the best part of all we were like that together. Owh.. I forgot to mention that I wore a sweater and a very loose pants all throughout the whole day running and all. And yes I carried my bag with me too. Stupid me.

...wrong clothes for the right reason

Day out with people and Avi

We went out yesterday again yes... A week after pyramid. The reason why I could go was becoz of Avi. Its his birthday!!! WOOO HOOO... I finally got to meet drew and august and also some of my friends from school which I felt forever missing them. And also an addition to a new freind Fio from East Malaysia... She speaks Indon + Malay= Bahasa Sarawak... lolz.. hahaa It was fun but the journey there was not!!!! I had to take the train to Midvalley and yup you guessed it The F**** KTM. It is so crowded and hot and sweaty and smelly and everything disgusting. I had to switch in Kl central to board another ktm train. I got stuck there for 20 minutes++. Fucking public transport... Underground and dark and sweaty and everything disgustingly imaginable. But it was all worth it to see everyone who I had missed for quite sometime now. All for you guys eventhough I had to ride the KTM. Owh... The Nightmare of Elms street is Violent and also scary.... Signature still has the coldest theater hands down.... ( when you pay RM 21 for watching a movie you had to get good enough aircond and also a kickass sound system with also privacy to make it more worth while)

... having fun and a break of missing you guys

Ps : Just wanna type this down dunno why but I just felt it....

> Most people lost their first loves because they have learnt how to treasure the second

..the first of everything

owh shit....

Todays my first day going to college in Rahman. What I feel exactly?? Hmmmm... It's like you are so comfortable in kindergarten and then transition to primary school which you know nothing about. I kinda freaking out. I get this feeling of my stomach being twisted or maybe I'm just hungry.... I seriously cant tell the difference now. Hehe. Anyways, I hope I can make new friends there which are not "lala" and speaks English. That is my dearest wish. I hope that college wouldn't be so bad and I can just breeze through it like school. Even though If I have friends in college and may seem close and happy you school friends not to worry cause you re considered family to me. Praying hard wei. Dont screw up or make an ass of myself there. I hope for a nice person to get along with me on the first day of the same course. Its alot to ask for but wth... The levia that you know which is all tough and all but now I'm as shy as a mouse. God help me. (see jo... I PRAY) hahaha. Hope I make it.

...all over again

drifting away...

In the morning as I see life pass by

I wonder what are you thinking

Open my eyes and hope to hear your voice

Nothing but a faded feeling

Counting the time as it goes

I realize that time passes by

I stop and try to get you out of my head

Soon you're gone

A memory is enough to last a lifetime

Since I had to flow with the current of time

Nothing is left behind

As the music play and the beat is still on

I live in a life of songs

...beat of the wind

bye e@t...

I just had my last day of working at e@t.. Sad and emotional day especially for S. I wish I could be with them helping and all but unfortunately I cant. For just 3 months, I didnt know that it would give such an impact to the people there. I was treated like the lil sis of the family. It seriously felt like home. I had 3 elder brothers, two sisters, an uncle and aunt and also a dad and mom. It felt just perfect. And the best part of it is how my presence working there had made such an attachment to this family. It really broke me and my heart did sank. I just didnt show it because I just dont want this to make it even harder. So many mistakes and so many burns and also countless of cuts and wounds. All my blood sweat and tears all there. Where my working life started. I would never forget e@t as my first encounter to earn money for the first time. It was the most hardworking 3 months I had ever. Just wanna say thanks and all and you guys will always be my e@t family.

...e@t-ing my heart out to you

old memories...

When I hear a familiar song I think of what we did and how happy we were. Too bad everything had vanished. Cant believe that I was there for you soo much trying to make it all better but still not enough thus you went away. Sorry to say that's all I can give. Its sad to see you go away but the aftermath is even more heartbroken as I see you muster your strength to forget the same things that I'm trying to get rid about. Why must we get rid of happy memories and how could those happy thoughts hurt as much? I just dont understand this and never I will.

... caught in the moment

April... thats when everything changes...

Its been long since I've written a post for this blog but somehow I had found time to do so today. Everything's fine and many things had changed. I finally got my P licence... yupp I CAN DRIVE!!!! I'm so happy bout it and no more waking up at seven on Saturdays anymore. Today I woke up at eleven on a Saturday for like the first time in months. This month is also the last month for me working in my beloved cafe which makes me wake up every morning and happily going to work. Made new friends there and the whole cafe is like my 2nd family which I feel so heavy hearted leaving them to go to college. I'll miss them. I had a new hairstyle and also bought a new jacket.... Its just so much changes that had happened during the month of April and just like that next month I am finally going to college. New environment and new people also a new lingo. In the cafe we kinda speak hokkien and I had learnt a few phrases as they all came from penang. So when I'm in Setapak everyone these unfortunately speaks Chinese. Changing frequencies of language in every place. Sometimes I get so caught in that language and suddenly someone speaks in English I have to pause for 2 seconds to actually reply then in English. I know weird. To let you guys know I am working hard and pulling O.T at every day of the week. Tired so I didnt manage to update my status. Anyways I know sports day is coming up and I wanna say: B. L. U. E . Blue!!!!! WOOOOOHOOOOOOO!!!!(thanks to teng =.='' its still stuck after all this time) Hope to visit you guys there ASAP. And for all my peers.... I miss you guys.. When do you guys wanna hook up???

...grown up life

I need a hug...

What I need now is a warm hug. Not by just anyone but as long as I know that this person wont go away. Someone that can give me the feeling that I've lost. I had a bad day today and I had never cried as much that I can remember. I wish that I know someone like that is out there waiting for me. I have let you go but not the feeling that you gave me. I miss the feeling but not you. All I remember now is a warm calm and safe feeling instead of your smile. The sad thing about it is I only felt it with you and no one else. I gotta let go this is driving me crazy. Dont know what to say much becoz I dont feel like doing anything right now. Felt dizzy and restless. I want somebody to take me by the hand and pull me away from this madness.

..still waiting