story...

A likes B for 3 years but they never express how they feel towards each other. They were kinda close and they really care for each other. As time goes by, they had alot of memories but B have to leave. A was really upset until A cried and emo-ed for a long time. While A was emo-ong , C came along and repaired A's heart where it was damaged. A liked C so they were happy. When B came back, B knew that A was close with C and were kinda happy. B got upset and had a fight with A. A was even more hurt by B but C didn't know about it. A was really sad for the whole year but still dearly love B but at the same time had a little bit feelings for C. A apologized to B but the relationship was still cold. A decided to move on but B was always coming in all of the sudden. One time when B came, A ignored B although A loves B. A was putting on a mask while having fun with C. A wanted to let B know how it hurts. When A got really close with C, A just noticed that B is the one who A really loves and thinks about. A slowly got further away from C. C got upset and emo so C ignored A. Now A does not have either B or C but A wants them to be happy when A is not with them. A is now slowly moving on and trying to forget all of those moments with B but doesn't remember any of them with C.

"tulan" + teachers day + getting back exam papers

This friday is teachers day so as a tradition, form 5's are suppose to plan the whole thing. There is a a play which we kinda made which we played as teachers in our school. I quit the play and ended up singing a duet with my friend. This fine morning, my mood was like ***k because someone made me pissed off and had issues with ''girls  emoing''. Well,since you're a guy you couldn't possibly understand how we feel. My other friend was having a rough 2 weeks got ''kutuk-ed'' by some guy cause of her emoing and there it was the statement.'' Why girls always easily emo? Why PMS ar?? Why so sensetive??'' all these are bombarded to my poor friend which later cries. I was like" She wanna emo let her be la. Why do you have to make such comments when its not you?"I got soo pissed with guys not understand girls and at the end needs them for......ect...ect.. When I got back my Biology paper i was quite frustrated and almost made me teared. I fought for every single mark possible but wasn't satisfied. I did the same when I got my Sejarah paper which I got 60. Dem sad la and pissed off.

ps. DO NOT MAKE STATEMENTS ON GIRLS CAUSE WE HAVE OUR OWN ISSUES YOU"LL NEVER UNDERSTAND!!!!!!

.....emo

what if....

Sitting in the car on my way home from dinner, I started thinking what if someone who you love cries infront of you out of disappointment in a relationship? What will you say? What will you do?

As i was thinking about this scenario, you came to my mind. What if no one went separate ways.... What if we had more time... What if what we feel is true...  I could picture us in tears and all we did was stare at each other till our eyes start to water. You held me. I stood still. I could feel you holding me  so tightly until I could feel your heart beating. And...... just like that I went back to reality. I knew this will never happen but there is no harm dreaming of it rite???

.....dreamer

unexpected...

Today was tiring. Didn't know why we cant win footsal?? Everything was there except luck. The team who is the least expected to win became champions and the "semangat nak menang" team got last and second. When I thought of it, I was seriously funny. Although  my team didn't win but we had great fun. Everyone went back with smiles. In the game, it doesn't matther you win or lose but the most important thing in a game is try your best and have fun. Today I went to the movie stall and bought a couple of tapes. The first thing I did when I came back was watch Pathology. The movie was VIOLENT and inhuman. Well, that makes a thriller huh.... Anyways it was a mixture of sex,murder,anatomy,dissecting human beings and a lil bit of affair. This is the only movie that made my stomach twitch. Still kinda tired after the footsal game....

....tired

found and clueless

Hahahaha yay I've found my dog back. She was home this morning and I couldn't be happier. Well,since this is the good part now I'm gonna talk about the clueless and "dunno why" part. I saw someone today and I was kinda shocked. That someone was kinda close to me but when i saw that person I didn't even say "Hi". All I did was talked to that someone's friends and went away when that someone was there. Why am I doing this? Even myself cant answer cause there are reasons that made our relationship got worse and further we drifted apart. I really wanna talk to you but I don't know what to say. I'm so f***ed up la. This time I walk away. I saw you looking at me and I know that you saw me looking at you. It's just .......... haigh. 

???????.......

lost

As you're reading this I'm crying cause my dog had gone missing. When I came home fron school my dad told me that my beloved pet is gone. She escaped in the morning through the window and haven been seen since. The last time I saw her was before going to school and I still could remember her fur felt till now. She is the only one who listens to me and cheers me up. Now I have no mood to do anything but cry and hope she'll come back. ........Haigh I feel so worried and the more I think of it the more I started crying. Nothing can cheer me up right now. Wishing that she come back soon...

.....worried owner

losing you

Sat under the rain

Tears starts to fall

Cause when I think of you

I think about the part which you walked away

Things have passed

But steps are being made

There is no turning back to what it was

Feeling lifeless and numb

I try to close my eyes

But the only thing I see is your face

My heart stop beating when you left

I still could feel you beside me 

Doing nothing but holding me

The sound of your laughter still echos in my ears

Last time I saw you I put on a mask

To hide all those feelings which made me sad

Cant do anything to make it go away

Why cant this come to an end?

Perhaps I'm the only one feeling this

But I've seen signs which I'm not too sure

Keeping quiet in my heart

I cant stand losing you

light intensity or temperature???

My dear friend Joanne has geniusly done her biology paper 3 with full confidence. She was so happy until...... she had written light intensity instead of temperature. She had just lost 33 marks. Coping with the misery, we actually made it worse and started to make fun of her. She said " I have spent the whole night studying" and Andrew without a pause said"Hahahahaha spend the whole night just to fuck it up". Everyone laughed. He is brilliant in all of this. If Rachel was here she could have laughed her ass off the whole day. Haigh.... Anyways the biology papers were ok but the most frustrated part is in my paper 2. Instead of writing "spermatocyte" I wrote "spermatosis" and "sperm" which suppose to be "mitochondria". Not only that the only one which drives me crazy is when i wrote "lysis" instead of "phagocytosis". Half way of doing paper 1, I noticed all these mistakes which I have made in paper 2 which I kinda confidently could score. Although I have noticed all these mistakes I've made, the worst thing is I cant change all those answers which I wanted.  Well,I cant stop of worrying about that tomorrows paper which is Pendidikan Moral. It the most annoying and frustrating paper which need no understanding and to score is to memorize all the stupid nilai and the super ****ed up definisi. I really cant see it will help in my future cause eventually it will float away after SPM. 

......me

I just noticed...

I just realize that I have the ability to study for my on coming BIG exam. Rather scared but have the so called 'semangat' which gave me the strength to study for the last 6 months that I will ever have in school.EVER!!. Just felt sad and don't know what brings tomorrow when I'm out from school. There is one thing that will forever give me strength to pull through eventhough I've fallen down which is...........(hahaha i cant even trust my blog) 

hahahahaha k!! I'm done.. lolz..

number 1#

The same faces is what surrounds me,

But yours is what I clearly see,

Creep behind you slowly,

To see your surprise face which smiles to me,

As days past and weeks gone by,

We kissed but there was no goodbye,

Here I'm traped in my past,

I kept wondering how long will this feeling last,

Only sometimes I see you again

Without you Its such a pain,

Deep inside I hope  you'll see,

You will always be apart of me.