old memories...

When I hear a familiar song I think of what we did and how happy we were. Too bad everything had vanished. Cant believe that I was there for you soo much trying to make it all better but still not enough thus you went away. Sorry to say that's all I can give. Its sad to see you go away but the aftermath is even more heartbroken as I see you muster your strength to forget the same things that I'm trying to get rid about. Why must we get rid of happy memories and how could those happy thoughts hurt as much? I just dont understand this and never I will.

... caught in the moment

April... thats when everything changes...

Its been long since I've written a post for this blog but somehow I had found time to do so today. Everything's fine and many things had changed. I finally got my P licence... yupp I CAN DRIVE!!!! I'm so happy bout it and no more waking up at seven on Saturdays anymore. Today I woke up at eleven on a Saturday for like the first time in months. This month is also the last month for me working in my beloved cafe which makes me wake up every morning and happily going to work. Made new friends there and the whole cafe is like my 2nd family which I feel so heavy hearted leaving them to go to college. I'll miss them. I had a new hairstyle and also bought a new jacket.... Its just so much changes that had happened during the month of April and just like that next month I am finally going to college. New environment and new people also a new lingo. In the cafe we kinda speak hokkien and I had learnt a few phrases as they all came from penang. So when I'm in Setapak everyone these unfortunately speaks Chinese. Changing frequencies of language in every place. Sometimes I get so caught in that language and suddenly someone speaks in English I have to pause for 2 seconds to actually reply then in English. I know weird. To let you guys know I am working hard and pulling O.T at every day of the week. Tired so I didnt manage to update my status. Anyways I know sports day is coming up and I wanna say: B. L. U. E . Blue!!!!! WOOOOOHOOOOOOO!!!!(thanks to teng =.='' its still stuck after all this time) Hope to visit you guys there ASAP. And for all my peers.... I miss you guys.. When do you guys wanna hook up???

...grown up life

I need a hug...

What I need now is a warm hug. Not by just anyone but as long as I know that this person wont go away. Someone that can give me the feeling that I've lost. I had a bad day today and I had never cried as much that I can remember. I wish that I know someone like that is out there waiting for me. I have let you go but not the feeling that you gave me. I miss the feeling but not you. All I remember now is a warm calm and safe feeling instead of your smile. The sad thing about it is I only felt it with you and no one else. I gotta let go this is driving me crazy. Dont know what to say much becoz I dont feel like doing anything right now. Felt dizzy and restless. I want somebody to take me by the hand and pull me away from this madness.

..still waiting