never felt free-er...

Since I met you I have felt this connection and at the first glance I knew something is gonna change. Things were great and I had been on a mood roller coaster ride with you all along and now I'm finally off. I know I said that countless of times but now I know its for real. Well, there are somethings when you learn to let go even you had been trying for years to find the strength to do so will finally come. The reason that I took this long is because everything that I were and stuff around me reminds me of you. Even the slightest bit is just enough to make me freeze into the time where it were. Now out from the old and now currently in a whole new environment had made me forget more faster and look forward. Living in the past had taken a toll in what that was suppose to be greatly show its signs. Still keeping you with me but not as before. As a memory and a lesson. Not to beloved anymore and hope that once is enough for me. All I want is you to be happy and be the person who I once knew and believed. The strength so great where it pushes me and drives me but now it fades away when someone who came in and took all the load that I need to push myself further to get closer to you. Without that load I became lazy and slacked alot from what was. I gave you what I promised and I had done it. Getting it back where it belongs. Now I feel free as a bird and I have learnt to build fences before I let anyone in my heart again.

... securing the area before another breakdown which takes years to fix