Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Am I the cause of this?

Everyone tends to leave when they get close. Why? Is A not worthy of their stay or its too hard for them to be around me? First is B then C. A dont ever wanna be in love anymore. Its too tiring and to costly for A to bear. Can A play another round in this losing game? Forget about love and the adrenalin in the game which A is good at? Its soo close and just an inch forward A could grab it? Why is it like this whenever its so close but far away? Its so frustrating whenever this happens and makes me feel that I am not worthy at all. Did A risk everything for the both of them didnt mean a thing? Is A gonna live as if its just a stupid memory and nothing happened? What about all those things that they felt? An epic story where whatever A does could never get anything? Not even the truth and just living with assumptions of A's life. A has lied and cheated and paid the price. Have learnt the lesson and had changed. Still not worthy. Sad to say that A is tired of love. Tired of thinking and willingly to die alone where time comes. No one wants a used to be liar/cheater. Guilty till death.

... not worthy at all in the eyes of two people

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