the 5 hours i've wasted

Its all about waiting for something. Something important and something for life. The beginning to earn your wings of freedom. Its... your Undang Computer exam... YAY!!! I woke up at around 7.00am on a SATURDAY!!!! Because the driver has to pick me up from my house. Waited and waited guess when he came?? 2 hours later.... It made me like a stupid fool waiting for something and to sacrifice my precious sleep. ( I dont get alot of sleep these days cause of my work and its sooooo effing tiring...loving it anyway hehe) Reached the place for the exam and there.... the thing I least wanna see is a crowd. I waited and there I was called to take my L licence photo. I waited til I eventually rot. Finally I was called to the exam room. I was like OMG!!!! FINALLY !!! FOR LIKE 5 HOURS I"VE BEEN WAITING THERE AND ALMOST MY WHOLE DAY IS RUINED!!!!. Went in and did the test. It wasnt that hard though and I have failed a couple of times doing the exam on the cd they gave. So I finished early and I re-checked everything. Just imagine if I fail again I have to go through that same shit like what I've gone through that day to resit the stupid test. Why cant malaysia be more effective? There are like 100++ people crowded in a office lot and aqt a time only 12 computers are only used to test them. To the best of it only 2 authorized personnel are working that day. YAY!!! Malaysia boleh wei... At the end of the day I passed phewwww... 44/50.. lolz. hahahaha thank god... Seriously getting a licence is so frikin hard so dont waste it and you may eventually rot for 5 hours waiting to do some computer test which you'll eventually forgot the next day bout what they have tested... lolz...

...being legal

telepathic feelings...

It seems weird but whenever I feel my heart stings for no reason I know that you're hurting. I just dont know how and why I feel this. I sometimes think that the reason why I felt this is because I can take it all away from you and to make you not feel so alone feeling hurt. I wish I could just be there with you and hold your hand telling everything is gonna be alright even I myself dont know what will 10 minutes later will be. I just tell you so just to ease your heart. And do everything I can to make it happen even its gonna be worse. I think its all my fault that you ended up like this. I wanted whats for the best so I let go. But now I realized that what I did for your thought happiness made you hurt. I couldnt sleep that night and almost didnt have the mood to do anything. My work went out the window. I was struck out. Now the only thing I wanna know is are you still really hurt behind that mask you always wear. Even if you lie to me I could feel it. It will take time to heal and I'm not pushing you into anything. I just want you to let me in and know the real you. The one which I felt and once knew. Though were kinda far away I know. No need to say a word or cover up something. I feel it. Though it has been awhile I remember. If you're reading I wanna let you know that although no one knows who you are behind that mask. Not your closest people or even me. I somehow felt it unconditionally.

...same but parallel

Turning a year older... being a lil wiser...

Yesterday was great. Had lots of fun and a complete drain off my energy. I would like to thank people who wished me and make my day although I'm not seeing them everyday anymore. Dont know what to say right now... all I can say is I really appreciate what you guys did...

.. speechless moments

Fate...

You know when sometimes you ask yourself that Why does this happen? What is the reason behind it? I was searching but a friend of mine said Its Fate. For those out there says Everything happens for a reason and deeply believed in it will get caught up when you're in this never ending string of web. I have spent 3 years thinking and may have found an answer for all of this. When you try too hard you dont succeed and when you dont even try at all it happens. Is there anything to prove this theory of mine? I know a lil part of you that you never show. Nothing seems to work out since this had happened. You didnt find happiness. I know. But we're still recovering. I am certain that you can find a way out of this. I have prayed for you to get away. Away from me and everything else that didnt make you happy. I wanted you to do what you wanted and not waste any moment here. I actually prayed for you to go away.... Not for me but for what you have to do. Even if you dont I will be going away from here. Somewhere a thousand miles away and may never come back. I hope that all I have done is enough and need not more to drag this on. If everything happens that is what you call FATE. Fate which makes things happen for no reason. For the good and for the bad of all of us. Let fate does this once more for whats best for us.

...going away for fate

distractions but not enough....

Its been ahwhile since I've seen you but never stop thinking. There were some others along the way but it just wasnt you. Stupid but true. I admit that I was tempted and wanted and I gave in. I was trying to find it again. Not sure ever gonna find one. Anyways I have been ok all along watching from afar and not being seen. Knowing the other side of you when you're not infront of me. You dont know that and not planning to let you know. I never said a thing. But now I cant anymore. Since I not invited. There were games and chases which I've played but not quite what it was. Dissapointed but had a really great time though. Got the excitement back. I wonder why people act differently when I walk by or have the idea of some games to be played. They seem to buy it and just join in without me doing anything. That was a gift I had. But too bad it has no use the right way. Its just something to draw attention to and just to be forgotten the next week or two. Although I know that it would never be the same again, I would still watch from afar whenever I can. Its just a habit I guess. Something which would stick with you forever. I will continue playing games and chases as I try to regain feeling to my numb heart. Happy though but not as was before.

... going as much as I can

So fast and its February already????

Well, February is the most special month of the year. It only has 28days and sometimes 29. Chinese New year is always around the corner and there arent many people celebrating their birthdays on this special month. Anyways I dont have plans on how to celebrate my birthday and I guess it will be boring and felt like just another day. Not a big party fan or crowded places I guess what I'll do is sit infront of the computer and play Cs or something just to waste time of the day. And its been a year since I had a busted ankle and its been a year since blue house got back the basketball girls champion. That was memorable I cant imagine how to top that off for the rest of my birthdays to come. My dreams came true and my friends were there celebrating too. I remembered it was a very tired day but they somehow manage to plan everything. Didnt have a chance to say thanks and now I'm gonna say it : Thanks for being there and all the things that you guys did for me you guys were the greatest and will forever be remembered.

..birthday blues

a lil bit more personal...

Remember I have kinda promised you guys a personal pic from me and my life... well here they are. NONE of them are on facebook and this is from my personal camera. It's kinda random but whatever....

what I eat...

what i drink...

..where i sleep/study and others

where i currently work....

and what i wear...

Now you know a lil bit of my personal life.. till then peeps... love you and miss you

...me

iDiOtIc CuStOmErS in F&B business...

What am I gonna tell you guys now is based on my first 3 weeks experience on my new Barista job in a cafe in DiGi's Main Office in Batu 3. Start work as usual at 9am and there are alot of people who work there and most of them came around for a cup of latte or americano(type of coffee). So when I was there I witness there are types of assholes who are just plain kurang ajar and they are from a BIG company. Anyways here are the few types of people that I deal with everyday.

1. Black- faced sleepy-need-coffee people

These people who simply response-less when you great them with a hello. They just IGNORE you and some just give you a "look". They NEVER smile and they look sad like they had been scolded by their bosses and been awake to like 10000000000 days. Have deep dark eye circles and n shaped mouth and lil messy hair.

2. The flies.

When you come to a cafe, you have the intention to buys something rite??? These people just for the sake of walking here buzz around and just leave. These people are kinda annoying when you have to attend to their presence and just leave.

3. Clueless and plain BLUR.

These people are just plain idiotic and need to ask to every detail of everything. They are simply annoying and someone has to just shut that fucker up. They tend to ask the same thing everytime. Looks dorky and plain BLUR These people are just a waste of time and some just ask plain stupid questions where everything is on the menu.

4. Squekie...

These people speak SOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooo softly till you cant hear what are they ordering. You have to put your ear towards them to just catch a word they're saying. If not ask till you hear them.

5. Unsure-er

These are the biggest IDIOTS and money wasters. They tell you someting and they order someother. This also applies to idiots who tell you the very last minute where everything is done. Others comment that what I gave them is WRONG order and as well customers are always right so I have to redo EVERYTHING. Just wanna errrrgghhhh.....!!!

6. Commentator

This type is t usually the BITCHIEST and the most loud among the others. They simply comment about eveyrthing saying that this and that is bad and they compare ALOT!!!!! The way they say it is SOOOOOO bitchy and they just wanna make an impact on us who work in the cafe.Makes you feel so f-ed up and makes my co-barista go WILD!! And there will be drama.... IT's best to just tell the fella to fuck off and make your stupid Aik Chong 3 in 1coffee and eat your maggi cup noodles... just cheap...

7. Last minute eater.

When everything is set up for closing, some of them just purposely order something which we already kept well for tomorrow. Just to see us take everything out again and serve them and then clean everything and put it back is just plain wrong. These people are just the people you wanna SLAP in the FACE whenever they appear.

8. The stuff taker.

They simply just simply ask for more tissues and stuff and at the end becomes a waste which they did not use. Some even take our straws and ask for free milk when they dont even buy anything from our cafe. This pisses us off because we are paying for everything which they did not even buy. Idiots who take us for granted.

9. CustomiZER

These are the ones who ask for stiff which are not displayed or even sold. They want it to be super perfect and be customized just for them and no one else. They NEVER pick form the menu and wants a special from the chef itself. This becomes annoying when its during lunch or going back hours of the day.

Well thats how many basterds I have to deal with in my work and I hope they are not anymore to come. Other than that there are many many many nice people here in Digi and they are very understanding and well mannered people. I just cant understand where these DUMBASSES come from and how the hell they enter the DIgi office.

To good customers who are not in the list I simply enjoy making your coffee and taking your order. To others GO FUCK YOURSELF and HAVE A NICE DAY!!

...labeling the unlabeled